Tuesday, November 29, 2005 1 Comments A+ a-

I just want some sleep...
I know that I was told “things will never be the same” during my pregnancy and I was prepared for sleepless nights, truly, I was! But who knew that my days of sleeping in were over for good?! I loved (past tense) not getting up until 10:00 in the morning but I now know, those days are gone for good.

It is 6:00am on a Saturday morning and I can hear Devyn crying from her nursery. I can hear her in my sleep! I’m getting to the point where a baby is crying in my dreams before Devyn even starts to cry. (What?!? Now I can’t even rest in my dreams?!?) But if I can grab her before her cries become full-fledged wails, maybe, just maybe, I can sneak in a few more minutes of sleep. I run to the nursery, hold her to my chest, dash back to bed, and am beneath the covers in two minutes flat. (Beat that, Terrell Owens! Maybe the Eagles could use me in their lineup!) While half-awake, I do my best to sooth Devyn to the point to where we can both get some shut-eye. It’s a no-go; she’s awake and she raring to go. (I could try to ignore her but somehow the kicks and constant chattering keep me from my goal of blissful sleep.) I drag us both out of bed, trying not to wake Jon, and head for the kitchen where she gets her milk and breakfast. I’m looking at her out of sleep-deprived eyes and wondering, why did I get myself into this?! But then she flashes me a toothy grin and I decide to forgive her. We head to the living room for playtime and I lie on the couch and give Devyn half-hearted attempts at some kind of interaction. But it’s before 7:00am and I’m just no good this early in the morning. Eventually, my system wakes up and before you know it, I’m on the floor playing with Devyn and her blocks when I notice Devyn rubbing her eyes. What?!? Where was this tired child an hour and a half ago?! I lay her down for her morning nap but of course, I’m up for the day and sleep is out of the question. I glare at our bedroom door and relish that tomorrow is daddy’s turn…

It is 6:00am on Sunday morning and I can tell Devyn is about to start crying; Jon gets a sharp elbow to the ribs. “Wauh, mprof frouew” comes from underneath the pillows and blankets; I can only guess this means “What do you want?” Sure enough, Devyn starts crying and Jon gets another sharp elbow to the ribs. He rolls over and pulls me close (yeah, as if that’s going to get him out of this) mumbling, “Ignore her; she’ll go back to sleep.” A long and exhausting 20 minutes later, Devyn is still going strong. I yank the blanket and Jon falls off the bed and to the ground. He finally gets the point and grabs our daughter. He, too, brings her to bed but he’s able to sleep through her kicking and chattering. Bad words are rolling around in my head as I watch my sleeping husband return to dreamland and I watch my chance at sleeping-in vanish into thin air.

It’s 7:00am and once again, I’m on the couch trying to rev up enough energy to play with Devyn. I just want some sleep, just a little more sleep…

Monday, November 21, 2005 0 Comments A+ a-

Opening Birthday Presents!

Monday, November 21, 2005 0 Comments A+ a-

Formal One-Year Photos
We went to Sears Portrait Studios and tried our best to get Devyn Paige to smile but with little success. She was such a serious, little girl the entire time. Of course, the minute we left the studio, she was all smiles again!

Happy Birthday Baby Girl!

Saturday, November 19, 2005 0 Comments A+ a-

One year ago today, Devyn Paige came into our lives and has been the biggest blessing ever since. We love you, baby girl, and are so thankful that God placed you here with us! Happy Birthday!

Friday, November 18, 2005 0 Comments A+ a-

As I've been reflecting on Devyn's upcoming birthday, I've been thinking about all of the things I wish for her life and the following synoposis really touched a chord in me.

  • I'd really like for you to know about hand me down clothes and homemade ice cream and leftover meat loaf sandwiches.
  • I hope you learn humility by being humiliated, and that you learn honesty by being cheated.
  • I hope you learn to make your own bed and mow the lawn and wash the car. And I really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when you are sixteen.
  • It will be good if, at least one time, you can see puppies born and your old dog put to sleep.
  • I hope you get a black eye fighting for something you believe in.
  • I hope you have to share a bedroom with your younger brother/sister. And it's all right if you have to draw a line down the middle of the room, but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you because he's scared, I hope you let him.
  • When you want to see a movie and your little brother/sister wants to tag along, I hope you'll let him/her.
  • I hope you have to walk uphill to school with your friends and that you live in a town where you can do it safely.
  • On rainy days when you have to catch a ride, I hope you don't ask your driver to drop you two blocks away so you won't be seen riding with someone as uncool as your Mom.
  • If you want a slingshot, I hope your Dad teaches you how to make one instead of buying one.
  • I hope you learn to dig in the dirt and read books.
  • When you learn to use computers, I hope you also learn to add and subtract in your head.
  • I hope you get teased by your friends when you have your first crush on a boy\girl, and when you talk back to your mother that you learn what ivory soap tastes like.
  • May you skin your knee climbing a mountain, burn your hand on a stove and stick your tongue on a frozen flagpole.
  • I don't care if you try a beer once, but I hope you don't like it. And if a friend offers you dope or a joint, I hope you realize he is not your friend.
  • I sure hope you make time to sit on a porch with your Grandma/Grandpa and go fishing with your Uncle.
  • May you feel sorrow at a funeral and joy during the holidays.
  • I hope your mother punishes you when you throw a baseball through your neighbor's window and that she hugs you and kisses you at Hannukah/Christmas time when you give her a plaster mold of your hand.
  • These things I wish for you - tough times and disappointment, hard work and happiness. To me, it's the only way to appreciate life.
Written by: Paul Harvey

Monday, November 14, 2005 1 Comments A+ a-

Some Fun Photos
Daddy and Devyn reading before bedtime.
Learning to traverse different types of ground...

Thursday, November 10, 2005 1 Comments A+ a-

"Coming To An End..."
I gently stroke her cheek; feel her weight in my arms; feel her soft breath on my skin; and lock my eyes with her baby blues. She sighes contentedly as she snuggles in closer and I smile as her eyes start to droop. I sit and soak in this moment as Devyn heads into dreamland. I can't believe these moments are coming to an end...

These past couple of weeks Devyn and I have started the process of weaning and all too soon we're down to only two breast-feedings a day. Such a sense of sadness, filled with poignancy, as I realize that this time with her is almost over. Nothing can explain the wonder as I watched her latch on for the first time; it was finally happening, something I had imagined since the moment I found out I was pregnant; I was getting to bond with my baby in a way only mothers can. At that time, I was planning to breast-feed for 12 months, that's it. "Anyone who breastfeeds their children longer than that is crazy," I thought. But now I understand; I now know why my mom continued until we were all 14 months old. Mommies will do anything to keep that connection a little longer. I'm not sure if I can do this; I've loved every moment of breast-feeding and I don't want to give it up! But I still have two more weeks; I'm going to cherish every moment I have left.

Shhh...child, back to sleep. Mama is here.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005 1 Comments A+ a-

Big New, Big News
Last night, Devyn walked for the first time!

Jon and I were playing with her in the nursery and Jon decided to help Devyn stand without support. In the past, whenever Miss Devyn stood, she'd try to take some steps but would always fall. Not last night! She took one step, and didn't fall; she took another step, and didn't fall; and then she took one final step before falling into my arms! Wow! We're so grateful that the first time happened when we were both home and we were able to witness it. I had no idea that watching milestones like this, could make a mommy's heart so proud.

Devyn Paige caught in the act!

Tuesday, November 01, 2005 1 Comments A+ a-

Yesterday we celebrated Devyn's first Halloween and had a blast. We've been carving pumpkins; visiting grandparents and aunts; received plenty of candy to last us (Mommy and Daddy) until Christmas; handed out candy to crazy kids in paint; and even went trick-or-treating with our friends, the Lewises. All in all, I would say it was a very successful Halloween.
Devyn Paige - Flower ChildDevyn "Flower Child" and Addison "Moo"
Carving Pumpkins with Daddy
Playing with our pumpkins!