Update and PicturesOh my, where to begin? First of all, my sincere apologies for being absent right now. We’re in the midst of trying to find a routine and balance, and quite frankly, I feel like we’re swimming upstream. Argh!!
Hudson is doing wonderfully!! I’m not sure how it happened but we were blessed with another easy baby. He’s eating every three hours and spends the rest of the time sleeping or just looking around, taking in his surroundings. He rarely cries and instead uses little grunts to let us know that he’s either hungry or wet; we’ve taken to calling him “squeaker” because of it. Breast-feeding is going very well; the engorgement stage has passed and we're on an excellent feeding schedule. We took him to the doctor yesterday and they confirmed that he has thrush, so is currently on antibiotics. Our poor, little man… He is growing like a weed, and already weighs over 8 pounds. *Sigh* I’m trying to stop time so I can savor these newborn moments.
Devyn seems to be adjusting as well as she can; she loves her baby brother and we constantly have to remind her to be “gentle” and/or “soft”. I’m really not sure how these babies survive their siblings, but by God’s grace, they do. While Devyn is in love with the new baby, she has decided that she hates me, however. We’ve had a couple of instances where she just screams at me for no apparent reason. Talk about feeling like mother-of-the-year! And our great bedtime routine?! She has yet to sleep through the night since we came home and our nerves are a bit frayed. Is this typical 2-year-old behavior? Is she trying to adjust to the changes? Does anyone have any suggestions?
Jon returns to work on Monday, leaving me home with the two kids alone. Do I feel ready? No. Am I scared? YES. Baby blues has struck again, and while not as bad this time around, I’m still prone to anxiety, fears, and mood swings. One moment I’m reveling in my two beautiful children, feeling blessed beyond comprehension, and the next I’m in tears as I try to juggle very different needs. I also want to sit and study Hudson’s every facial expression, every breath, like I did when Devyn was a baby but I find that Devyn needs more quality time with me right now. So those bonding moments with Hudson have to wait until nap and bed time. I feel like Hudson is getting gypped but I’m sure as long as his tummy is full and his bottom is dry, he’ll survive. All in all, we’re doing okay, just trying to adjust to our changing world.