Pregnancy, Hormones, and ChristmasI cannot believe how fast this pregnancy is flying! I’m currently between my 29th and 30th week of pregnancy and I just don’t remember my pregnancy with Devyn progressing this fast. Physically, I’m feeling pretty darn good. I had my 28-week check-up last week and I have now gained 23 pounds from the start. I cringe a little as I say that because I’m a little nervous as to how much more weight I’m going to gain these last ten weeks or so. But I know that in the end, its completely, totally, and utterly worth it. Amy and I were talking last week about weight gain during pregnancy and I told her that I’m just preparing myself to work a little harder this time around to lose the pregnancy weight but I’m sure breastfeeding will go a long way in helping that along.
At my 28-week check-up, I was still measuring about 2-3 weeks behind (and yes, this is fundal height), so my doctor (I just love her) sent me for another ultrasound to make sure that things are going okay. Honestly, I wasn’t that worried because I always measured small with Devyn and I just figured that to be the case with this one too. Imagine my surprise when the ultrasound technician said that my measurements show Hudson is measuring at 29 weeks and 4 days; approximately two days larger than he should be. Regardless, it was wonderful being able to see him again and we were also treated to a pleasant surprise when the technician pulled out the 3D ultrasound machine. We got some wonderful shots of Hudson Jay (short for Jonathan, but too long to say) and I think Jon and I both fell in love with our little guy all over again. I hope you enjoy the photos.
Emotionally I feel like I’m on a roller coaster; there’s so many ups and downs that I’m not really sure which way is up any more. I have moments of extreme highs, especially with the Christmas season here, and I’m so confident that I’ll be able to adjust to being a mommy of two that nothing can faze me. In those moments, I’m excited to meet Hudson, hold him in my arms, and love on this new life. However, on the other end of the spectrum, I have moments of complete doubt, wondering how I’ll ever love this child as much as I love Devyn. There are times I feel sad at the thought that Devyn won’t get my full attention anymore; that it won’t be just the two of us on errands or special outings. And then the moments of guilt set in as I feel I’m not giving Hudson the proper excitement and joy at his coming birth. It’s a vicious cycle, one I’d love to break but I’m sure that won’t happen until his arrival and everything just “clicks” into place. Any reassurances from veteran moms would be greatly appreciated!!
I wanted to end with this, I absolutely LOVE being pregnant during the Christmas season. Despite the fact that this is one of the most joyous times of year, there’s just something special about wandering from store to store with this belly sitting out in front of you. Strangers bestow special smiles on you; doors are held open; I’ve been ushered to the front of the line a couple of times now; and there’s just a sense of warmth coming from fellow shoppers. I do LOVE it! However, with that said, if one more person tells me I look like I’m about to pop; or is shocked when I say that I’m not due until February; or kindly tells me his friend/neighbor/relative is due next week and I’m bigger than she is; I may lose it… Christmas spirit or not!